A day of optimism

The only way things are going to change for you is when you change.
Make sure that the outside of you is a good reflection of the inside of you.

• Boys, flings, crushes, relationships in general; they all come and go. I am learning to accept that, and I am learning to move on, learning not to dwell so much in the past because there's a bright future ahead of me. If that means being independent and single for a while, then so be it, but I'm doing my thing... that goes with the saying, never fully rely on anyone. It's nice to be known as the INDEPENDENT one and not the dependent one who can't handle her own. It really doesn't get you anywhere, because people WILL let you down and that's a guarantee. Be your own person. Don't submit to the needs, wants, expectations or standards that people set for you. Set your OWN personal standards HIGH enough for YOURSELF.

• I wish a lot of people knew that you REALLY DON'T need someone to give you happiness. Yes, lonely nights are going to be there once in a while, but there is nothing better then living your days stress free & just giving thanks for what God gives you. I don't know if many people have noticed, but when you're busy & you keep yourself occupied, when you're NOT waiting for anything or anyone and just living your life the way you want to, that's when God gives you someone. And it's good for a while... until that chapter ends, and you're back to doing your own. You get a little taste of what good is coming towards you in the future. Every struggle/story/experience you have with someone is just a step closer to meeting the REAL love of your life. So cheesy, so true. Don't go looking for someone, you are WORTH THE WAIT.

• I need a job but I'm not stressing SO MUCH on it. "Theres a difference between making a living and designing a life." I have patience because I trust that God always provides. Yet I don't want to be entirely content with where I'm at. I should never be content, I always want to have that motivation for myself to push for more... I'm not going to stay in this spot forever, there is always room for progression. Formal education will make you a living. Self-education will make you a fortune.

• I love this weather. It adds on to my happiness.

• School is a breeze, and it shouldn't be. I like to challenge myself. I know I can do better when it comes to education. I'd like to be accepted into a good 4-year college once I graduate. It'd be nice. But if that doesn't happen, then I know for fact that God has bigger plans. Grades don't define intelligence.

• My friends & family may irritate me sometimes, but I need them. In order to keep our relationships with each other healthy, you may need space for a while. I'm good with that. Above all, I have their backs to the fullest. Once high school ends for everyone, people tend to go their seperate ways. Growth and maturity. It's an exciting yet scary thought; Adulthood. It's crazy how time flies. It's crazy to wrap my mind around the thought that we're all growing older. When I'm done with high school and out of the small box full of superficial cliques, I will finally be able to see who will truly be there for me through it all. I like the feeling of telling the world that I only roll with the best of the best...

• The people I surround myself with... some influence me for the better, and some for the worse. I am a life-long learner, forever a student in life. Don't join an easy crowd; you won't grow. Go where the expectations and demands to perform are high.

• Spring break. I remember a year ago, spring break was crackin'. Hope this week will be as well.

• Senior Ball. Eh, I have a year more to go. But I'm excited for Frankin's ball despite the fact that I don't have a date. I don't care much.

• Nowadays, I have really weird dreams. Honestly, I wish I had another dream about Steven rather then the dreams I have been having recently. They leave me waking up pissed off, and they are the most random dreams too. Eh.

• I am loving dance. I get really excited to go to dance practice 3 times a week, even though it ends really late and I go to school super tired. But I feel that 3 nights a week isn't even enough for me. I'm super excited for our big show in May. I hope to see everyone there! It's gonna be BIG.

• I miss the city, but I'm enjoying the suburbs. I don't plan to stay here, but I am making as many friends here as I can until it's time to leave.

• My youth group is the BEST. I love them, and I hope more of my friends will be able to join and experience the fun and growth along with me. There's always room for more.

• Class of 2009... I'm going to be sad when everyone leaves because it's fun having everyone around. But my senior year I'm planning to do it big, and become super involved with everything to occupy and entertain myself. I never want to have a boring moment because I know that once 18 hits, it's responsibility and I'm not quite ready for that just yet. I still like the comfort of my own home and coming home to my loud, active and fun family.

• Words of wisdom... Leave a Legacy. I know a grip of people that left a legacy behind before their passing. I miss them a lot, but they left with being an inspiration. That's what I want to do, to leave with being remembered just like what they did. Live a life that will help others spiritually, intellectually, physically, financially and relationally. Live a life that serves as an example of what an exceptional life can look like.

God is Love. Love never fails.